Where the Light Meets the Dark, Part 1

It's unlike anything I've ever experienced in my life.
It's a lonely place to be.
It's a place of question and doubt, of everything I've ever known or believed.

My whole life I was always told,
          "You're just a big girl."
                      "You have big bones sweetie."
                                   "You just take after our family gene."

However, in the past 10 months what I have actually learned about myself is that dark place I speak of.
           I have an eating disorder.
                       It's a scary thing to acknowledge. And it’s a frightening thing to battle – alone.

Last fall I embarked into a “Bible study” for young women who battle self-image issues. Little did I know at the time what God would pull out of me! What TRUTH He would reveal about the real me – the woman who has been suffocated into lies and disbelief of who she really was – who I really am.

I took the step – I began the process of working through my crap. I wasn’t really sure where it all was going; where it had all come from – but it was there. It was here.

This all happened at what seemed at the worst time for me – just before “my” World Race journey would truly begin. It’s crazy how God does those things… However, in retrospect, the timing was perfect. God wanted me to work on my crap; not travel the world.

I completed the study, Images of His Beauty (IOHB), shortly after I returned home from WR TC with the most amazing group of ladies I’ve ever met who also struggle with self-image issues. It's hear that I learned I was no longer alone in this journey. I took the plunge and went to see a dietician, thinking she could fix all my food issues. Within the first meeting with Brina, as well as the feedback and outcome of my WR TC experience, I also sought out a therapist.

         I had no idea where this journey would lead me!

To Be Continued …